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Sunday, February 8, 2009

the-one-that-got-away...
Pwedeng dati mong nakarelasyon. O fling. Pwedeng naging kaklase mo nung high school ka. O kaya kapitbahay.

Siya yung taong ngayong mas mature na ang outlook sa buhay, ngayong kahit nasa relasyon ka na at maligaya ka, siya yung isang taong naaalala mo pa rin.

At higit sa lahat, pinanghihinayangan.

Palagay ko, karamihan sa atin, merong the-one-that-got-away sa buhay niya. At lahat tayo, gusto nating magkaroon ng second chance.

Yung second chance na masabi man lang yung matagal nating kinimkim sa dibdib natin.
Gaya nung isang kakilala ko: “I love you.”

Pwede rin namang kabaligtaran.
“Hayup ka, demonyo, bottom!”
Kasi hindi lahat ng the-one-that-got-away, matinong tao. O nagpaalam man lang ng maayos.
May ilan sa atin, raise your hands kung kayo nga ito:
tayo yung the-one-that-got-away.
Tayo yung iniyakan.
Tayo yung pinanghinayangan.
Parang ang haba ng hair (or bigote) di ba?
Pero sa totoo lang, hindi dahil ikaw yung the-one-that-got-away ibig sabihin ikaw yung mas lamang.
Kasi nung lumayo ka, nasaktan ka rin naman di ba?
At minsan nga, mas malalim pa ang sugat mo kesa dun sa iniwan mo.
Minsan, ikaw pa yung may sugat na hanggang ngayon hindi naghihilom.
At 'sing dalas mo ring naiisip yung iniwan mo.


Gusto mo ring magkaroon ng second chance.
Para mag-“I love you.”
O mag-“hayup ka, demonyo, bottom!”


Dahil hindi naman lahat ng iniiwan, kawawa.


Ako siguro, at ito talaga ang matagal ko nang kinikimkim, gusto ko lang mag-‘thank you.”

Ewan ko ba.
Bata pa ako eto na ata ang bagahe ko.
Eh ang dali-dali namang mag thank you di ba?
Dalawang salita lang, kahit galing sa ilong, kahit ngongong "Wenk yu", sapat na yun.
Pero sa buhay na to, well so far sa buhay ko, ewan ko senyo, eto ang nadiskubre ko:

Madalas, yung napakasimpleng bagay pa ang ipinagkakait natin sa mga taong mahal natin. Lalo na kung gusto natin silang saktan.

“Thank you” lang, at maisasara ko na nang buong-buo ang kabanatang yun sa buhay ko.

Kaya thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Kung nababasa mo man ito.

Thank you.


Friday, January 2, 2009

Mad?

Holding grudges is not one of my many talents.
I cannot be mad forever.

But still,
remedy is needed for recovery.
and I know what can cure me-

a lot of space and time.

but that's just temporary.

I bet YOU know what I really need. XD


Saturday, December 27, 2008

Being Sincere

The dictionary defines sincerity as the quality of being genuine or honest with oneself and with others. We see this in people who reach out to help others voluntarily because they know it is the right thing to do.

One perceives this quality in anyone who makes a promise and keeps it or in someone who practices what is right and true.
He or she never engages in flattery; his or her compliments are honest and true.

but how will you know if that someone is sincere or not?

[FLASHBACK]

In my past, somebody promised me... that he won't ever leave me, that he'll always love me. Because of my trauma of pain, I tried to test his sincerity. But then, he failed.

*:
the fact that you left me made me feel like dying

that's why

I have banned you from my thoughts forever
even now... as I write this...
My mind dwells elsewhere...

And while my mind wanders...
Let me make it clear
That I have forgotten you completely.

If I think of you before I sleep and when I wake,

IT IS BUT A HABBIT
AND BAD HABBITS ARE HARD TO SHAKE OFF





STAINED

Ah! Mortal grief!
Oh! useless, vain regrets!
What will not MALICE and FALSE RUMOR say?
KEEP THEM SILENT!


[Leave me with my grief]
(I long for night and silence for my tears)


Take A Stand

There are times in our life when we are faced to make a decision. What makes the decision hard is that both sides of the issue seem equally unacceptable or equally acceptable.

In my life I've committed a lot of mistakes because of taking the wrong move, or moving at the wrong time. And now-again, I'm forced to make a decision.
They say, "smart people looks at all sides before making a decision."
Am I smart enough to choose the best for me?...
Or...
the best for the common good?...